And the journey expands...

(Left aligned for Doug.)


Every moment is a fresh beginning. 
~T.S. Eliot

Almost three years ago now I began this journey as a teacher-librarian. It is in the late winter/early spring that schools begin to work on their staff allocations for the coming school year and it was in March of 2017 that my current administrator approached me about moving into the role of teacher-librarian at my school with the goal of transforming the space into a library learning commons. 

As I have received news that I was successful in my bid to become the Vice President/ President Elect of the OSLA Council for 2020-2021 years, I think this is a great time to reflect on my journey thus far...

(I do want to thank Trevor MacKenzie, Dawn Telfer and Doug Peterson for reading and editing my bio before the OSLA election. I appreciate it and I appreciate you so much.)

Becoming a teacher-librarian has rekindled my love of reading. I have read more books in the last few years than the years previous. This may also have something to do with the age of my girls and that they no longer need to me to direct them in all their play endeavours and can be trusted to manage themselves for longer lengths of time... but let's say that it was also due to my new role! 

I have read more Canadian literature in the past few years after discovering the Festival of Literary Diversity  and attempting to read the entire long list of the Canada Reads program in 2018 with a group of friends. I remember reading a lot of Canadian literature as part of my undergrad studying English literature and finding so much of it dreary and old. Always in the past. Always about colonizers. Always part truths. Now that I have started a journey to re-educate myself about the true history of Canada's colonization and dark past, I can see the disservice done to me and my fellow students in those long ago lecture halls. Inspired by the journeys and reading list of others I have sought out books and authors that will help me to understand the truth and begin to work for reconciliation. 

I have also expanded my reading tastes beyond books that show a mirror on to my own life and my own culture. I have learned to seek out books written by authors from all over the world. From a wide variety of cultures, backgrounds, family structures, and more. I have learned the importance of reading books that reflect #OwnVoices . (I blogged recently about my reading journey in 2019 in a blog post called- Looking Back, Reading Forward)

I have worked to bring these books into our library collection and to have students see themselves in our collection. I love that the students feel empowered to suggested books they want more of and new titles they think belong in our collection. 

It surprised me (and humbled me) that after 2+ years in the TL role and completing my Teacher-Librarian Specialist I had not yet read "Mirrors, Windows, and Sliding Glass Doors" by Rudine Sims Bishop. While I had encountered the idea of books providing "mirrors on our own lives and windows into the lives of others", I had not had a first hand experience with the article. I thank Diana Maliszewski for guiding me to the article after a recent panel we were both a part of for OnEdMentors.  The opening passage is pure magic-

“Books are sometimes windows, offering views of worlds that may be real or imagined, familiar or strange. These windows are also sliding glass doors, and readers have only to walk through in imagination to become part of whatever world has been created or recreated by the author. When lighting conditions are just right, however, a window can also be a mirror. Literature transforms human experience and reflects it back to us, and in that reflection we can see our own lives and experiences as part of a larger human experience. Reading, then, becomes a means of self-affirmation, and readers often seek their mirrors in books.” ~Rudine Sims Bishop

I have always been a hands-on, get messy, play around with stuff kind of teacher. As a special teacher I had the fortune to work with years ago recently told me "[m]any of the things you did 10 years ago (thing I have adopted to this day), I see teachers doing now. " The benefit is that now I have a name to put on the things I tried all those years ago that just felt right and that I knew were working with my students, even if I didn't always have a term for it. I now know that my jump and loop around style of teaching math is called spiralling. My hands-on, maker, questions first, student-led social studies and science teaching is inquiry-based learning. Allowing students to create as part of their learning is the maker movement. Becoming a TL and reading, reading, reading as allowed me to centre my understanding of these pedagogical methods and to feel empowered to share my beliefs of the value of teaching and learning this way. 

I posted recently on Twitter about my aunt who was a TL while I was growing up and that I wanted so much to be like her. Sadly, she passed away in September of my first year as a teacher. But every day I think of her and what she might have thought about this journey I'm on and where it is taking me. As I wrote in my bio for the OSLA Council election - I believe in being open about my own learning journey as a educator and a teacher-librarian. I see the role of the teacher-librarian as a curator, an advocate, a risk take and an ally. The ability to see the big picture of  curriculum and content integration in central to this role. Each day involves asking questions, making mistakes and learning together. 

I have discovered a love for podcasts in the past few years. There's something special about listening to a long discussion or story that really dives deep into a topic. I love the connection that is created by hearing the voices of people across the void as they discuss various topics. This past year I had the honour of joining in on some podcasts as well and it was great experience each and every time. I met Stephen Hurley from VoicEd Radio at OLASC in 2019 and from there the connections just blossomed.  

A long held goal of mine... I will be presenting a workshop at OLASC 2020 with two amazing educators, Tina Zita and Jane Dennis-Moore. I am beyond excited to share our learning journey related to identity, photography and diverse texts.

I just submitted my first-ever action research paper related to the open-making program I call the Genius Cart for Treasure Mountain Canada 2020. A year long culmination of questions, reflections, successes, failures, and exploring the messy, wonderfulness that is maker ed. 


I think becoming a teacher-librarian has helped me to become more of myself. 

I am excited (and nervous) to see where this new role takes me and what new learning will take place. 

I am humbled to be in this role and hope to do it justice. 


Looking Back, Reading Forward

Maybe this is why we read, 
and in moments of darkness we return to books: 
to find words for what we already know. 
~ Alberto Manguel

This past year I tracked my reading using GoodReads for the first time. It's not the first time I've ever tried to keep a list of the books I've read but it is the first time I used this app and that I was consistent for the whole year. 

I set a reading goal at the start of the year, not because I wanted to reach a certain number but because I was interested in knowing how many books I would read over the course of the year. I've noticed in the last two years as my daughters have gotten to an age where they can be trusted to play and entertain themselves that I have been able to read more again. In the early years when they were babies, I was either too exhausted to focus on reading or every time I tried to read they would want my attention. 

Now that they are older, I can read as much as I want ... but 
I also miss those little baby arms always reaching up to me. 

I started out the year blogging about my reading with the intention of keeping it up all year. Isn't the saying that "the path to Hell is paved with good intentions..."? Well, as the year got busier and other things took my attention I dropped that endeavor but I think I'd like to pick it back up this year. 

Maybe focusing on just 1-2 books each month? Maybe completing a FOLD Reading Challenge? Perhaps this is the year I read the Canada Reads long list as I did a few years ago?

I'd definitely like to find time for more PD books during the school year. 

A wonderful educator, Alanna King, that I met at previous OLASC's and who I follow on Twitter recently blogged about her reading journey and it really stuck with me.

Alanna shared this video on Jacques Derrida from Youtube (and I swear I haven't heard anyone mention Derrida since my days in undergrad...) and it was super interesting.

My husband and I often talk (or have a fierce discussion... however, you want to call it!) about the state of the world, people's reactions to things, and our own opinions. For two people who pledged to spend their lives together, it's rather amazing how little we often agree on.

One thing that usually comes from our chats is the belief that most people are too stuck in their own thoughts and beliefs. That they haven't attempted to learn enough about the "other" around them. That we need to go outside of ourselves, to ask questions and to learn more, and to understand that we know less than we think we do.

So what did I read last year?

Well, GoodReads just happens to create a visual display of the books logged over the course of the year.















I have also been reading articles related to reading. What reading is and could be.
The books that should be available to children and the books that need to be available to children.

I started with Diverse Literature in School Libraries: Reflected Realities by Matthew Courtney (School Librarian, Vol. 67, Issue 3, The School Library Association) and then moved on to Mirrors, Windows, and Sliding Glass Doors by Rudine Sims Bishop (Perspectives: Choosing and Using Books for the Classroom, Vol 6, no. 3, Summer 1990.)

I was sad, disappointed and a little ashamed that neither had crossed my path during any of my teacher-librarian courses or qualifications.

Then the amazing article by Rabia Khokhar came out in the ETFO Voice Magazine entitled- The Power of Stories: Learning from Complex Characters to Counter Islamophobia (Winter 2019). This led me to A Black Character Does Not a Good Book Make: Choosing Black-Focused Books to Support Culturally Relevant Teaching by Natasha Henry (ETFO Voice, Spring 2018). And finally, as I had already started writing this blog post the latest edition of The Teaching Librarian magazine arrived with the article Silent Message in the Stacks by Holly Dickson (January 2020, Vol. 27, Issue 2).

So after a year (and more) of intentionally diversifying my reading-

...reading books with #OwnVoices, from backgrounds and cultures different than my own, trying new genres and formats, reading more non-fiction and memoirs, reading Canadian books, etc-

Do I have less questions? 

No.

But I'm happy with that. I'm happy to have more questions.
More wonderings. More confusion.
Less certainty. More openness.
Less silo.

More books to read. Always more books.

And isn't that the magic of reading?

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